Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Please help our cancer buddy!

Hello our sweet Cami supporters.  Thank you all so much for your support, love and kind comments the last 2 weeks as Cami finished her chemo treatments and we celebrated her long and amazing fight with cancer.

Unfortunately, today cancer veered its ugly head once again and is claiming one of our sweet cancer buddies.   I am writing about this family today because you have all been so wonderful to support our family, I need any of you that are able to please focus your support on this family.

Meet Cheri and Hunter Hansen.  

Cheri is a fellow cancer mom.  Her 9 year old son Hunter was diagnosed with leukemia (AML), he went through treatments, but unfortunately his cancer returned.  He was then told he would need a bone marrow transplant to rid his body of cancer again.  On September 18th 2012, while he was still at Primary Children's Hospital recovering from his transplant, his mother suddenly passed away from a heart attack.  Here is Cheri's obituary (found here):

Cherilyn S. Hansen, “Cheri”, died Tuesday, September 18, 2012 in Salt Lake City, UT.  She was born to John and Dorothy Stanley on April 25, 1975 in Evanston, WY.  She married Phillip Hansen on June 20, 1997 in the Bountiful LDS Temple. 
Cheri loved being outdoors, hunting, fishing, water skiing, and snow skiing.  She enjoyed high school sports.  Most of all she loved being with her boys and being part of a big family.  She was an active member of the LDS Church and held several callings.  She received her Associates Degree from Western Wyoming Community College and substitute taught.
Cheri is survived by her husband Phillip Hansen, her two sons; Phillip Jr., and Hunter Hansen, all of Rock Springs, WY.  She is also survived by her parents, John and Dorothy Stanley, of Rigby, ID; a brother, Curt Stanley, of Rigby, ID; and three sisters, Cathy (Stan) Jones, of Denver, CO; Carrie (Randy) Miller, of Santa Palua, CA; and Cami Mueller, of Evanston, WY.
She was preceded in death by her infant daughter, Shaelyn Dorothy Hansen. 

Here is Hunter's CaringBridge journal entry after his mom passed away:
Bad Week

Written Sep 29, 2012 3:43pm

As if that isn't the family learned that Hunter's cancer is back for a second time and there is nothing more the Doctors can do for him.  They told his father (who also lost a baby girl 12 years ago) to take Hunter back home to Wyoming and make him comfortable while he lives out his last days on earth.  Hunter is old enough to understand what is happening to him and he is still mourning the loss of his beloved mother who he will soon be joining in heaven.  It is just beyond heartbreaking.

Here is Hunter's CaringBridge journal entry from today:

Busy Week

Written 3 hours ago
There is not a lot that can be done for this family, but I am asking each of you to help me send them some love.  I want to flood his home with uplifting cards so he knows that we care. Please make them happy and uplifting. Hunter is nine years old, he loves legos and nerf guns. He also has an 11 year old brother named Buster and his Dad's name is Phil, both Buster and Phil will need some support in the next few weeks as their family will go from 4 members, down to 2 members in a matter of weeks.  

Please send cards, gifts or donations to:
The Hunter Family
3800 Sunset Drive #17 RockSprings, Wyoming 82901 

Thank you so much for your help. I cant even imagine what Hunter's father is going through, let alone Hunter himself. My heart is breaking today. Please share this story with others you think might be willing to help.  Lets shower this family with love in their time of need.  Thank you amazing Cami supporters!  We love you guys! XOXO

Hunter Hansen

Monday, September 24, 2012

Cami's End of Treatment Video

Hey guys, this is Pat.  Just wanted to share this with you all.   She's talking about you at the end!  Thank you so much for everyone's support.. this blog has helped us beyond belief.  Thank you!

Cami's End of Treatment Video from Pat Carver on Vimeo.

Monday, September 10, 2012

Cancer free and off treatment!

I know I have been terrible at updating the blog, but I couldn't let tonight pass without letting the world know that Cami just took her final chemo pill tonight!

Here's a little video of the big moment...

We also want to invite all our local Cami supporters to join us in celebration of her battle.  We couldnt have made it through the last few years without all the love and support, we can never thank you all enough... now come PARTY with us!!!

Friday, April 6, 2012

Breaking the silence!

Hello, is anyone there???

I have neglected this blog and BADLY and if there's anyone out there still reading.. Im sorry!!  Our world is pretty much back to normal but I continue to play catch up with LIFE.  Sometimes I feel like I am grasping at straws.  Things have gotten easier since Cami has been on maintenance chemotharapy, but I have finally been forced to deal with the emotion of it all.  Once the hospital visits slowed down and life got easier I was no longer fueled by adrenaline.  It all just hit me like a ton of bricks and the feelings came crashing down on me.  Pair that with the fear.  The fear is the worst of it and it is hard to describe to someone who hasn't gone through it, but it can be earth shattering.  There are the "little fears", like hearing a little kid hacking up a lung behind you in the grocery store and KNOWING your cancer child will catch it and it's only a matter of hours before you're headed to the ER for IV antibiotics, fluids, and a full blood work up (not to mention an entire night without sleep because the ER likes to keep you there for at least 6 hours).  Or if Cami has an extra rash, bruise, bump... you name keeps me up at night.  I feel like a crazy person, OK... I AM a crazy person.  Then I worry about Caden.  Every fever, ache, or pain I just know he has leukemia.  I am ashamed to admit that I have already taken him in to the pediatrician to have his blood tested, of course he was perfectly healthy, but my crazy cancer -mom brain just goes to the worst case scenario and before I know it I have talked myself into another cancer diagnosis.  As if the "little fears" aren't enough, I am constantly faced with the "BIG fears" the ones that are very real and every cancer parents worst nightmare.  I live in constant fear that everything will come crashing down like it did July 10, 2010.  That we will get a phone call saying Cami's cancer is back, or worse.  There is never a moment in my day that I don't have a pain in my heart caused by that fear.   Pat lives with it too, he just told me last night that each and every time I call him, he gets that panic feeling, that I am going to tell him something terrible has happened.  Not to mention the fact that we have become very close to all sorts of cancer kids.  We have had to watch too many of them relapse, go to the ICU for months on end, or earn their angel wings.  It can all be too much to bear at times.  To be honest this winter has been a hard one for me emotionally, and that is why the blog has suffered because this blog is my emotional release and I just wasn't ready to share the hard times I was feeling.  I try to be very honest on this blog while being as positive as possible, but sometimes in the cancer world being positive is just too difficult.  So...if there is anyone still out there reading, I am sorry that I neglected this blog, but I am back and I am working through things and dealing with the fears a lot better.

One thing that has made us especially sad lately is that our sweet little cancer friend, Millie, has relapsed.  You can read some of my past posts where I talk about Millie and her amazing family here:
This is the first family we met after Cami's diagnosis.  Their blog was like a road map for us and we would only have to read it to know what came next for our Cami.  Cami and Millie have the exact same type of cancer, they are the same age and Cami was diagnosed just 6 months after Millie.  They have had almost identical side effects and they have both done relatively well through treatment.  To watch this family go through our worst nightmare has been almost too much.  It has just confirmed that our fears aren't far-fetched and that they are very real and that everything CAN come crashing down at any moment.  We love sweet Millie and we just hate to see her going through such pain and heartache.  It is unfair.  Cancer is just so brutal.  You can read Millie's story here.

Here are a few of the many pics I have of the "chemo sisters":
We love you Millie... Go, Fight, WIN!!!

I will be going back and blogging about all the big events I missed, and I promise not to neglect again.  Thank you all for supporting and loving us even though the hard times.  XOXOXO

Monday, January 2, 2012

Happy New Year!

We rang in the New Year with our good friends Taylor, Rachel, and their kids Jaidyn and Jensen (who are about the same age as Cami and Caden).  The kids had a blast together and YES...we let them stay up until midnight!

We partied the night away...

Danced A LOT!

 Kissed at midnight..

and wore the kids OUT...

much better than last year.  Look how far she's come...