Here's how Baylee feels about all of it. The poor girl has been really worried about her Cami.
As hard as it was, here's the good news... We go back to the hospital once a week for checkups and the Doctors say that everything is looking great. Cami hasn't needed a blood transfusion since we've been home which means her new marrow is now making it's own blood supply. In the cancer world it is all a waiting game, but for now things look good. On her 100 day post transplant, we will have a BIG checkup where they will take her bone marrow and test it to see how much of it is her donors and how much is hers.. we want it to be 100% donor on that day with no signs of cancer. It will be a nerve wracking day.
We have VERY long days at the hospital while they run tests or give Cami meds or order prescriptions. It just takes FOREVER!
Cami made this manger out of popsicle sticks during a hospital visit, yep thats how long we are there!
This is Ashtyn. She had a bone marrow transplant about a year ago and she is doing SO great!
We love running into friends who are doing so well and give us such hope!
Although Cami didn't feel great through December, we tried really hard to enjoy the season. We were humbled on so many occasions during this season. There were times I would get so sad that Cami wasn't out enjoying Christmas the way kids should. Then sure enough, a sweet friend or family would bring dinner, leave little gifts, or text to tell me they were thinking of us. I am so grateful for the many of you who have shown our family love and support.
The true meaning of Christmas sure came through this year in a VERY big way!
We still have to be very careful with Cami. Her immune system is still very fragile. She is not allowed back in school for at least a year and we are supposed to keep her out of public places if possible. A small cold could be very dangerous for Cami, so we try to be very diligent in where we take her and what we do. Even her food has to be specially prepared to keep it as sanitary as possible and she cannot eat out at all. Everything is prepared at home. We did allow one Christmas outing and it was so very special, I can hardly write about it without bawling. Creative Arts Acadamy dedicated their entire Holiday performance to Cami and her cancer journey. Each dance was choreographed with Cami's battle in mind. They had pictures projected and a narrater telling all that she had been through as the music and dancers expressed emotions in ways only dance can. It was an amazing night and our family was truly shown so much love by our community. What an amazing Christmas gift! Cami was able to come sneak in for the last couple dances wearing her mask, it made her feel so special and I am so grateful she was able to be there, if only for a few minutes.
Thanks to our amazing friends who dedicated so much time into helping make this event possible.
We decorated gingerbread houses
(Mommy had to do most of Cami's, but she had fun for a little while).
We watched LOTS of Christmas movies under the lights.
Bubba stayed outside playing in the snow with the neighbors until dark one night.. he looked like a snowball when he finally came in!
Cami wanted us to build her a snowgirl, so thats what she got!
Animal Jam playdate in bed!
We spend lots of time snuggling in bed. It is sometimes the only thing that makes Cami feel better.
This handsome lil dude had his preschool Christmas program
(which Pat and I took turns watching so we could rush home to Cami).
Since Cami can't be out in public, Santa came to visit the kids here!
Thank you Santa (thank you Flamm family)!
On Christmas morning, Caden came running in bright and early ready to go down to see what Santa had left him. Cami asked if she could sleep just a little bit longer (that's when you know your kid feels pretty crappy).
Usually, we are used to Holiday's filled with our big family and rushing from house to house so we can visit with everybody. This year, we stayed home and it was lovely. I tried my best to make our traditional brunch (it didn't even come close to Grandma's, but it did the trick).
We released lanterns to remember our sweet friend Millie. Oh how we miss that girl!
Cami wasn't feeling too hot on New Years either, but she wanted to stay up and party! She requested that we dress up, so we did!
Cami was feeling a little better New Years day, so we painted the Color Me Mine gifts from Millie's family. Cami LOVED this! I can't wait to take her there for 'art class' when she's allowed to be out!
Hooking her doll up to her nightly IV, just like mommy does to her.
Just look at that hair coming in.. so dark and thick-
ironically, she pushes her IV around in a doll stroller.
We have had so many ups and downs the past month. Every day is a hard road and it seems like just when we see a little progress something new begins. Cami has had issues with kidneys, her legs hurt almost all the time and just yesterday we found out she has a bacterial infection in her gut called C-diff. It is very painful and without going into too much detail- causes her to spend much of her time in the restroom. This week we were scheduled to start lumbar punctures (this is where they put her out to remove spinal fluid and inject chemo into her spine because leukemia hides in the brain), but we had to put this off until this c-diff clears up.
Every single day I look at this child with awe. She has been sick or in pain since July and still she glows. Her smile lights up the room. I get stressed out, worried and negative, but Cami (like her daddy) is so positive and happy, that she just lifts us all up with her. Even though she wakes up in tears every morning and feels pretty crappy most of the day, she still giggles and colors and tries her best to play. Oh, I love my little hero, I am so honored and proud to be her mommy.